i wonder WAT THE HELL IS GOING ON??

alrite.the 28th sucked..i mean in the day n all la.it was so dead was so tired cus the nite before i slept at 4plus in the morning cus i stayed up to look at the nice moon.den started thinking of everything in this fuckin world.felt so negative la.totalli rotten feeling.sorry char for not updating u.i'll nv do it again.u'll be updated everytime k?loves!well,i stayed back in school for dance but didnt go.at first my back really wasnt painful.i mean wen i was at the house meeting n all but later it got hell worse!i knew i shouldnt have said it wont get worse.n it did.haa.i feel like strangling maryann for pushing me n letting my spine hit the corner of a bend of a wall.anyway,no hard feelings ey maryann?? :] its okayy.yeah sodidnt go to dance in the end.sad.den walked ard wid mabel n simone.mabs didnt go fer training.she was sitting in cus of her hip.haiyo.tat girl ahh.nv knows how to take care of herself.wells.after tat,we talked to jr,cor n juli.sharon was there too.well yeah it set the tone for my mood,which wasnt exactly a long run of good moods?
_____at ard 5plus,we headed down to town to watch funkamania!!!!!!!was with char,mel,ling,sarah n mabs. was so cool la.charlene was dancing.u know mrs.poh's daughter?yeah.we were there to support her?!hahas.yeah they won btw! :]yeah a few things triggered my mood.it was sucky la..wish i didnt get ticked off.but its like c'mon.im doing so well with-standing everything i cant give up now.so i guess we'll see how it goes.
_____jia rui!!cor!! juli!!i need a hugg!!hahahs.yepp.
anyway,yeah i really dunno where my life is going.it seems like its going rite down the freakshit drain.its so saddening to be prepared to let smth go.its like taking away half my life.im not trying to be clingy or possessive at all but wen smth means the world to you,its gonna be so hard to let it go.well i guess everything has to work out for the better.haiz.wellhere goes my sighing again.freak it la..haiyo!!!!!!!!!!!!!ahh!!god help me???!!!im seriously going madd wit this whole thing.i mean seriously madd.im like living off panadols.crazy ey?wait!!don get the wrong idea!!im not addicted to panadols ahh??!hahahs.yeah.i keep thinking abt the sing"blvd of broken dreams"by green day.it so applies.see my blvd of broken dreams??dosent it so apply to me?yeahh.its so fcuking irritating how there's nth i can do!!!
_____alrite.this is down right depressing.ill stop now.well,tats all folks.cheers guys!take lotsa care.much-ie love to all.-flying kisses :]

if there was...onli yo[u]
If there was one thing i really wanted,
it'd be yo[u].
If there was one thing i'd wish for,
it's be yo[u].
If there were nothing left in this world,
i'd onli want yo[u].
All in all,
at the end,
all i want is yo[u].